Uncertainty..........

As you may have guessed (or may know) probably the biggest thing we, as a family, have going on right now is Paul's parents failing health. His Dad is riddled with prostate cancer, we know its spread to his lymph system, bones and lungs, and that the last scan was ages ago so who knows where else. We also have a 12-18 months prognosis that extends to Christmas................and yet he keeps going, becoming slower and slower, and more stooped, but still caring for Paul's mum. She is suffering from old age - she is almost fading faster, having TIAs, ever increasing weakness on her left side and now losing power on her right. Her alertness varies enormously from flashes of complete accuracy to times when she can barely make it through a whole sentence.
Why am I describing this? Because we are really struggling with the uncertainty of when and how things will happen. Almost any time the phone rings, and certainly if its after 10pm or early am, we all jump a mile. And Paul is really struggling with the thought of Christmas.
So please could you continue to uphold is in prayer, obviously including George and Audrey, and Val (Paul's sister) who lives very near them and carries the caring burden daily.
I know God is in control and will see us through this.

Everything and nothing

Sarah has been seriously nagging me for not blogging for ages - my excuse is that my laptop was out of action for a week, and although I was using an old one it wasn't so good, or easy - feeble I know.
So everything...............is all the stuff, Paul's parents, uncertainty about Christmas, work, etc etc, making me, and Paul feel battered and exhausted. But in the grand scheme of things I know that God is good, and in control and graciously showing me little gems to remind me - Sarah thriving at her course, something at work falling into place like its meant too.
And tomorrow PJ is away at the Space weekend, and Paul is off to watch the rugby, so Sarah and I are going to spend the day doing girly stuff, shopping and relaxing I hope.

insomnia :(

Which is why I'm blogging at 2.35am! I've had a really long couple of days, travelled down to Exeter etc, came home, shattered, went to bed, dozed a bit, Paul came to bed, started snoring and here I am :(
Exeter was the last of the Department of Health days I had to do - I've been working for the last 2 years and a bit on a piece of work with them (slight understatement there - this has been a huge project that I've invested enormously in), and we finally got it to the stage where we could go out to National Consultation, hence I've been travelling round the country doing events. They have been some of the most challenging events I have done - 60-100 people, usually all senior, picking apart the work the team has done, 3 hours of thinking on your feet, fielding questions, attempting to turn around their sceptisism into constructive feedback. We've had varied success, and time will tell, its not about overwhelmingly persuading them that we've got it right - rather that we want them to tell us how we can improve it. Anyway today, after some very lively debate, one person said, this is complex, which is why we are all here, but thank you for all the hard work you have done to get it here, and they all clapped! A nice way to end :)
On which note I think I might have another go at sleeping..........