I've been unhappy/frustrated/stressed and more in my current job for a long time, at least 18 months, probably 2 years. The job has changed from the one I went into 5 1/2 years ago, it has become less about patients and more about budgets and business, and I've become piggy in the middle between parents and the package of care they feel they need to care for their child. Now, reluctantly, I realise that this is what the job needs to be about. Its taken me a long time to accept that. And I've learnt a lot about me, and God, and about my worth being in Him, about boundaries, about not taking things personally.
BUT
I couldn't stay there - I was not able to be the person God created me to be, not able to use the gifts He gave me, not able to fulfil the call He has given me.
The call to be there for children who are dying, for their families, to walk alongside them, to speak out for them.
Yesterday I heard that I was successful in applying for a post which will let me do all the above and more. I'm not naive, I know it will be hugely challenging, but its working for an organisation who put the children and their families first.
I'm not sure its completely sunk in, and I'll probably have to wait until January to start the new job, and I have a lot to finish off before I go, but the end (and beginning) are in sight.
So I am very thankful to my Heavenly Papa, for both carrying me through this time, and for creating such a great way forward. And I am very grateful to my family and friends for supporting (putting up with?) and praying for me through out this long journey. Please stay with me on the next bit!!!
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